I've felt completely exhausted all day today. I'm dreaming a lot more lately so I know I'm not getting the deep sleep I really need. I have a headache this evening but I've been pain free all day, hooray! I'm feeling bloated and stressed and this afternoon was tearful and clearly suffering some sort of momentary life-crisis. I have these occasionally, and more frequently of late. I was watching an old episode of Portrait Artist of the Year and seeing all the talent and hearing about the different artists at the start just set me off. I feel so useless and so unfulfilled professionally. There are so many things I have a flair for and experience in but none are enough to define a clear career path (not without a lot more studying at huge further cost - I simply don't have the money or access to any form of loan to cover it) Volunteering is yet again proving to be a dead-end pursuit. I can't seem to get a break and it is tearing me apart. I hate feeling so useless and wasted.
Despite all this I did spend time on #21 today and it could be considered finished at long last...however, I am not particularly happy with it.
I also managed to do Day 28 of my 30 day yoga challenge. Today was 'Nourish'. I'm not sure if my body feels particularly nourished today - we had takeaway chips for lunch, F's homemade 'Lemon and Lime Ginger Lovelies' for pudding and copious amounts of sweets and chocolate! It's no wonder I feel bloated this evening.
One success today was that I made an important phone call (re: hospital). It didn't lead to a positive outcome but for me it was an achievement nonetheless, particularly as the 'on hold' kept playing a message encouraging me to try online instead. I persisted with the call and spoke to a human...huge for me! So I am a little bit proud about that at least.
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